I'm a hormonal monster... can you blame me?

Man, I really thought the mood swings were over, until today when every little thing was like glass in my ears.

Being a nanny right now has been a dream until today when you mix my short temper with sibling rivalry, a LARGE dog, who can't relax, and some 99 degree weather. I have snapped my way through, alligator style and have become tired monster who only craves a cup of noodles (note: this won't last long... My cravings change every week or so when what I want shifts to the list of things I feel like puking up... sorry)

But, I have also heard about other women in my life struggling lately with emotions and ups and downs. Whether due to dating or stupid boys or hard decisions and I want to ask "Who's idea was it to make the mother or the woman the emotionally unstable one?" Shouldn't we always be like a rock because we have so much pressure heaped on us to follow through and NOT lose our cool?

I stood in a grocery store today and watched a little child have a 5 alarm freak-out. It got so loud, the kids I nanny for just stood and stared in disbelief. I also watched as the mom of the child tried to juggle her 5 yr old boy with his fingers in his ears (trying to block out the noise) and her firecracker, red faced and screeching, The woman looked like she was ready to scratch out her own eyes or the eyes of her child. Now, I am not an idiot, I know this happens all the time, but I stood there praying that whatever type of child is developing in me would never become like that. But, is there really a way to avoid it? Probably not. But, I have felt that before... that panic and fear when a child suddenly heralds death spirits with its tantrum call. What do you do? Maybe that is when I could tune out and pretend Ray LaMontagne was standing next to me, singing to me in his rough, relaxing tones.

But really, what do you do when you are hormonally handicapped? When you are a monster flipping in and out of sanity? Does anyone else find it unfair that the "nurturer" also has to be the hormonally psycho one?

I'm not sure how to wrap this one up nice and pretty. I like what my mom said... she said "women may seem crazy, but we get our emotions out while men have a harder time with this." Whatever the reason, I am glad that I and all other women have a place to meet and understand each other. It helps to know we all over-feel and we are capable of so much love as well and so much insanity. :)